Hello folks,Yeah back again and there is news, I’m being medicated for my mental health, yeah me, the woman who was convinced that if I started taking it I’d be in a padded cell within a year. You see I am majorly BROKEN, with full capitals, because the abuse, the down right assholery I have … Continue reading
2024 – A New Life?
Hello again,Yes it’s been a while, well after the blood flow and the disruption to my life, the doctors decided I’d better go for the radiotherapy. Now there were just two options given, well one really, as one was six weeks of treatment which could have nicked my liver with a treatment and begin to … Continue reading
Phoenix Poem
Sometimes there’s no words to speak, No platitudes that will soothe the soul, Just the things that were happening, Were overlooked because you never said. That the monster can smile and coo and convince Everyone that you’re the one who’s wrong. Honied words and simple touches given As long as eyes were watching. Alone, The … Continue reading
And Yet More….
Right, where to start?I suppose at the beginning of the bleeding, you see I don’t bleed like every other woman you see on the television, you know the ones who can go riding on bikes, those who can dance around with skimpy underwear…. Oh no, not me.I bleed like I’ve been gutted and the clots … Continue reading
The end of stasis
Hello everyone, yes I’m still here.The coils were fitted perfectly, but the hormonal rages did come and I kept out of everyones way, the nurse who fitted my coils advised me to wean off the dosage, so I did and the whole thing has been easier to deal with than the full dose every day. … Continue reading
How much blood loss is too much?
Well this was a question I thought I knew, thing was I was wrong…. I had acute anemia, again, this time brought on by the mother of all periods, ten days of flooding, chunks and clots with the texture of liver. I was bleeding out, summer solstice and I was as pale as a ghost, … Continue reading
March 2023 – 3 years free
Well its been a hell of a ride so far, 2020 to 2023 has seen a lot of changes for me, some good, some great and some I wish I could forget forever. My recent life has been more about surviving than doing anything purposeful, I’ve been ‘coping’ all too well and the cracks are … Continue reading
New Poem
There are miles of strung out wire Barbed like the words you gave me Stretching out so far you can’t even see the end… Dripping red, coating the world with ruby beads So many struggles seen and lost within each doubled knot of nerve Strung out is not longer a euphemism It’s a truth that … Continue reading
When the weight gets too much
HI there, Yeah I know it’s not been months has it lol? But today and yesterday have not been great days for me mentally.It’s hard living day to day wondering just when your body is going to let you down permanently, when your body’s organs are going to start failing you because they will very … Continue reading
A Story refound
This is a story I refound after going through the computer and removing old things I now longer need. Wanted to share it with you and it’s all mine, hope you like it and if you want to share it, just say where you got it. Remembering….. “Get rid of it!” The woman looked at … Continue reading